Other People's Words Seem To Work

maybe I'm just too demanding
maybe I'm just like my father
too bold
maybe I'm just like my mother
she's never satisfied

This Little Thing is for Cookie.

Two Simple Songs

In one little video.

because the planet can still amaze us

Best In The World!

The Masters of Harmony (read= my dad!!!) won the international mens chorus competition this year in Nashville.
Whether or not it's your thing, give it a watch because
well,
you just don't see this kinda thing every day.
And did I mention that it's my DAD??

enjoy.

Hey Baby, It's The Fourth Of July

In honor of the anniversary of the independence of our nation, I put forth that we do not deserve such a celebration.
We are apathetic, fat and lazy. In all reality, we do not care about freedom so long as we have our cars, houses and diamond rings. We are free to buy. And we do. We hardly realize that we are under the thumb of the man- because truth be told- we like it. We like to be told what to do.
I can't change anyone and I can't make them see things that they are not ready to see. So I will merely remind you of what one of our founding fathers would have said about the situation we are in.

"Prudence, indeed, will dictate that governments long established, should not be changed for light and transient causes; and, accordingly, all experience [has] shown that mankind are more disposed to suffer while evils are sufferable than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But, when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same object, evinces a design to reduce [the people] under absolute despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such government, and to provide new guards for their future security." --Thomas Jefferson: Declaration of Independence, 1776. ME 1:29, Papers 1:429

I ask only one thing
Take a moment
And think.


or...whatev.
enjoy your hot dogs.

esoteric agenda.

ah, video again.
it's just that some of the things I'm seeing lately are changing the way I think and giving me new insight.
devote some time to this one please, and get all the way through. I know we don't have tons of time to sit in front of our various screens, but learning is important!

George Carlin

I know I've been to image/video centric lately and not said too many words- but forgive it this time as Carlin is Dead.
And I had a bad night.
Please watch the video and say your thanks to the man.
love,
me

Cookie Monster is just.....Unamerican!

Real.

"Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

~The Velveteen Rabbit

you have a date for independence day!

June Sandbox

sandbox june

The Truth About My Apartment

sent to Soph on the eve of her arrival:

I'm at work all day, till about 7, but you can come here whenever.
the house is atrocious, i mean gawdawful, my apologies. too busy for housekeeping, honestly.
the address is
****** ave (map it via google and buses are at trimet.org)
the code to get in the front door is *****
just like that
I'm #**- up the stairs to the right.
there are internets around. not sure what's in the building for wireless but I do have cable in the apt.
feel free to use the computer for whatever ails you.....
oh, and we are broke. as hell. fun is free or it aint.
I'll be online at work too so if you wants to speak through gmail just do the chatty thing.
as far as the cats go-
one is a kitten freak and won't talk to you until you've spent the night- but he hides in the couch so feel free to forcefully socialize him. his name is tewwa. or tewwabuls. or tewwa head. Likes to be on your shoulder but has not figured out that claws HURT.
there is a tiny black thing named Kali, aka tiny. she is fierce and sweet. she does not like to be picked up but loves to be touched. she will not sit down while she is on you and stands oddly on people. if she is too pointy just set her down. she'll go kill a bug/bird/squirrel for you.
Lemmy is king- he's an older silver tabby that is, well, my kid. if he's in, great. if he's not you may hear him yowling at the apt door. do let him in. he is the friendliest and will love you right away. wants world peace and hopes everyone can just get along.
So welcome!
and I'll see ya when I get home.
loves,
heather

hmmmm....

Big Five Test Results

Extroversion (56%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity. Accommodation (66%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex). Orderliness (44%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, random, scattered, and fun seeking at the expense of structure, reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment. Emotional Stability (52%) medium which suggests you average somewhere in between being calm and resilient and being anxious and reactive. Inquisitiveness (74%) high which suggests you are very intellectual, curious, imaginative but possibly not very practical.

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Oddly accurate~ thoughts?

may sandbox

From sandbox may

chinese gardens

From chinese gardens

oh, so nervous.
there is so much happening in so many places
here
there
everywhere

I hope I have a good grip because all of this change is shaking me to my core.
maybe i'll fly out the window

You have new Picture Mail!

bedtime story.

Incus: i wants a story noooowww

X: ok!

Incus: um, pardon me but it doesn't look like you are writing me a story

X: there once was a guy who got distracted and decided to promptly write a story!

here goes haha

Incus: HA HA AH

X: there once was a boy who threw off vibrations into the upper non perceivable dimensions and fell in love with the mystery unfolding. he didn't believe in love or math and then he met a girl whose love he couldn't quantify with neurochemistry! so he made plans to fly thousands of miles to meet her latest body even though they had been intertwined since the last time the singularity exploded, expanded and collapsed in on itself again.

Incus: i like this story.

X: when he returned home there wasn't a soft body of white light to make his dopamine move and his muscle memory wrenched from having learned to hold her, his brain wouldn't sleep until it was convinced it was laying next to hers, spiraling together like the arms of galaxies colliding and falling in into them selves like 2 mirrors parallel.

Incus: that's so beautiful.

i love you.

X: i love you

Whew.

Sometimes, the decision that you have to make is the most frightening, lonely thing you can think of. Sometimes it's the only thing that makes any sense- and you think, "I have to be fucking insane. why would I do this to myself?"
But sometimes, the alternative to making that most painful choice is worse. So much worse. More of the same- and the same is slowly burning your soul. Taking the good things away from you. the same is getting worse.

When things are that way-
Take the leap.
Risk it.
You are never as alone as you think you are.
Let yourself have some lightness- even if the cost seems too great- because it really isn't.

Take it from one who knows.

I can has theremin?

Kitten Plays Theremin

yep, that's right.

mp3 downloads | Ani DiFranco MP3s

Ron is here!

Hurt Me.

From tattoo night

I got a new tattoo! she's Erzulie, sort of the mother Mary of the voodoo religion. She is an earth mother; cares for her youngins the way I try to mine. She can be a little more girly than me but I need to embrace more feminine qualities anyway. Brant did it in exchange for some photography and experience. It hurt in that area more than it did on my shoulder or ankle- ow!- but I like it.
Sandbox happened last weekend. It was a little lackluster for me. I was trying to keep myself together and not fall apart and not drink too much and not talk too much and.......the pictures show it. ah well. Next month Michael will be with me and it'll be gorgeous.
I think the planets are in a very fucked up sort of alignment lately. for the past few days everyone, and I mean everyone, has been a gigantic asshole. I'm managing so far to not suck it all in and respond in kind but the longer it goes on the harder it gets. wheeeeeee!
I'm really trying here. As hard as it is, and as humiliating as it can be, I know I'll be a better, stronger person in the end.
At least it's all worth it.
Off to the laundry.

come get it.

Yeah.

80-Year-Old Deacon Arrested at Mall for Antiwar T-Shirt

In Long Island, New York, an eighty-year-old church deacon was removed from a shopping mall Saturday and arrested after he refused to remove a t-shirt protesting the Iraq war. Deacon Don Zirkel was handing out antiwar pamphlets when he was approached by security guards at the Smith Haven Mall. The guards placed him under citizen’s arrest after he refused orders to turn his t-shirt inside out. When the local police arrived they charged him with criminal trespassing and resisting arrest.

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Back at D's whoring some organizational skills for money. And some Art picture taking.
sick and cranky.

All things are mortal:
frienships and persons

and that just has to be liveable.
and it has to be promising.

new photos.

A little education for tuesday

The Merchants of Cool

"By the way, if anyone here is in marketing or advertising...kill yourself. Thank you. Just planting seeds, planting seeds is all I'm doing. No joke here, really. Seriously, kill yourself, you have no rationalisation for what you do, you are Satan's little helpers. Kill yourself, kill yourself, kill yourself now. Now, back to the show. Seriously, I know the marketing people: 'There's gonna be a joke comin' up.' There's no fuckin' joke. Suck a tail pipe, hang yourself...borrow a pistol from an NRA buddy, do something...rid the world of your evil fuckin' presence."
Bill Hicks

A piece of advice

Be heartcore.

#82.1 - ANIMAL COLLECTIVE - Taste
by lablogotheque

It's all true. Every word.

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Crocodile tears....

Moving Over.....

I think I'll take after Cookie and reside here for awhile more.
The LJ vs. Blogger match continues and we have yet to see a clear winner.

off to see the Mountain Goats with Apes.