Whew.

Sometimes, the decision that you have to make is the most frightening, lonely thing you can think of. Sometimes it's the only thing that makes any sense- and you think, "I have to be fucking insane. why would I do this to myself?"
But sometimes, the alternative to making that most painful choice is worse. So much worse. More of the same- and the same is slowly burning your soul. Taking the good things away from you. the same is getting worse.

When things are that way-
Take the leap.
Risk it.
You are never as alone as you think you are.
Let yourself have some lightness- even if the cost seems too great- because it really isn't.

Take it from one who knows.